This morning at 9:25 PST, I knew that a murder was being committed. I knew because I had been told hours in advance. I knew this, and yet, I did not call the police. I didn't call anyone. I just sat in my home, and I cried. I knew that at that precise moment, a life was being taken, and yet, I could do nothing about it.
Let me explain. I am teaching an internet course, with 30 different students. Since it is an online course, I only see the students 3 times during the entire semester. It has been interesting getting to "know" these students by communicating with them through e-mail, phone calls, and message boards; yet, I would not recognize them at all. One of these students, a young girl appears to be happy, yet always distracted and busy. She e-mailed me this morning. Her message reads something like the following: I will not be able to make it to campus today. I recently found out that I was pregnant. I am nearly two months pregnant, and this pregnancy must be terminated. I am going to be getting an abortion at 9:25 this morning, so I will be unable to attend the mid-term. I hope this does not offend you (oh, no.....it mortifies me), but I would like to take the test at a later date.
I have always been against abortion, but this was the first time in my life, that I actually knew it was going to happen. I sat at my desk and just stared into space. As a teacher, I knew what my policies were regarding the test, but as a Christian, and as a mother, my belief system was yelling out......What do you mean you have to terminate this pregnancy? Why did you even tell me this.....I don't really want to know......I don't want to think about the fact that every day innocent lives are being killed in my town.....involving some of my students.
All day, I was somewhat haunted by this reminder. But, it has been good for me to remember, and better yet, for me to pray. I prayed alot for this young lady today. I don't know how and if God will use this situation in her life......but, it has been good for me to really pray....earnestly.....and to just remember.